overall, i've felt great and most of all, i love the feeling of a life growing inside of me. watching my belly grow, feeling the first flutters of movement to the full on belly waves from a little being tossing, turning, and kicking inside. feeling the consistent thump of hiccups each day and having a constant companion who is all mine.
it makes me sad to think this is likely my last pregnancy. my last chance to feel the kicks, my last chance to put my hand on my belly and know that i am carrying a new life. i'd love to have a third child, but i also know the financial responsibility that comes with another. and i know my poor organizational skills and my complete lack of multi-taking would likely pose a problem when trying to keep up with a home, three children, and a business. as much as i don't want to admit it, i do know that we will likely stop at two. not to mention, it took us so long to get pregnant this time around and i just don't see us likely to go through all of that again. i am painfully aware that many people out there try for much longer, many still waiting to become pregnant. so i am very thankful for having been blessed with this experience twice.
and as much as i was thrown for a loop when we found out we were having a girl, i am also thankful for the experiences, challenges, and lessons that i know will surely come with her. this pregnancy has been worth the wait and i'm sure our girl will be too.
38 weeks & we thankfully have all the necessities covered. carseat is installed, clothes are washed, hospital bag packed {mostly}, pack & play set up, and we have a name.
i'm ready. so now that we finally have it together, i'm thinking little miss will likely stay put until her planned delivery date. i am soaking up these last few days. enjoying the last kicks & movements. as uncomfortable as i've become, i'm so grateful to have made it this far. and all in all, my uncomforts really aren't all that bad. i keep thinking to myself, 'what else should i be doing?', 'what else won't i have time for?', 'what am i forgetting?', 'how should i spend the next few days?'. spend time with rivers, clean, organize, rest. those are the only answers that keep coming to mind. rivers has a 3 days weekend, which has come at a perfect time, so we will definitely be spending some time together. i've done a little cleaning today, which feels good. as much as i'd love to "organize" - truthfully, thats not a strength of mine & likely won't get done {a girl can dream}. and i have been resting. my body only allows me to do so much before its time to rest again. nature has an amazing way with that.
