the way we were

i've been giving this blog some thought. do i keep it up? do i just quit? do i make my professional blog my personal blog as well? do i like this blog? does it serve a purpose? how does this fit into my life?  who is this blog for?

i think this blog has changed over time as to what its purpose is. i started the blog for my parents, friends, and extended family - all who live(d) hundreds of miles away. i was newly pregnant when i started it, so i had a lot of exciting news to share & figured a blog would be the easiest way to keep people updated. and i think that it served that purpose at that time. after rivers came along, it was still fun to share his milestones with everyone who hadn't met him, or see him often. and as he's grown, i've continued to post mostly pictures of him along with little updates.

i have noticed that less family & friends check in these days. part of it i know is because i post less & people get tired of coming to check in only to see the same old post & pictures. and part of the reason i've been posting less is b/c really, the day to day just isn't as exciting. do people really care that its still raining here in eastern north carolina? probably not. when i was expecting rivers, i think the anticipation of pregnancy really gave people (along with myself) this sense of urgency to see & know whats happening each day until delivery. and of course, now that my parents live in the same town (god help us all), they see rivers everyday and they see the changes for themselves, so they no longer need pictures & updates. i was starting to lose interest in the blog, because i felt like no one else was interested. so my posts became fewer & farther between.

after giving it some thought, i've decided that while my reasons for starting the blog were very good, my reasons for stopping it weren't. just because less people check in as often, doesn't mean the interest isn't there. and more importantly, this blog really should be for rivers, myself, and jeremy & i shouldn't be so concerned with anyone checking in. this is our family, our life, and this gives us a little journal to go back to hopefully years from now to see what we were doing back in september of 2010. this by no means is me saying that you're not welcome. this is a public blog - of course, if you're interested in our lives, you're certainly quite welcome to read & comment, if you should choose to, and i welcome you here along with your comments!! all of this to say though, that i am going to try to be more open, more wordy, more honest about our lives & what we're doing - even if i think its boring, sad, stupid, etc. when i get down to the bottom of it all, i want this blog to just be about our life. to be about what we're doing & thinking without worrying what others are thinking about it. i've kept myself at somewhat of a distance on here, pretty guarded, because i've been worried about what others will think. have you ever heard of the quote, "those who know you don't mind, and those who mind, don't matter"? not sure if i got it exactly right, and not sure who said it originally, but well, that's my new moto - for the blog at least.  :) 

so again, if you're here & interested in our lives - hello, and welcome! please feel free to leave me a comment anytime, or send me an email - i'd love to hear from you! my goal is to keep a record of our lives, which will sometimes be boring & will sometimes be exciting. but that's just how it goes, right?!